Monday, October 10, 2011

Waiting

I miss my gran. She'd know what to say.

My dad phoned this morning in what felt like one of those life defining phone calls which inevitably starts with "caz..." *nervous pause* "I don't want to upset you,... but mom is not well".

When my dad got back from his walk this morning my mom was confused. She doesn't know what day of the week it is or that they are going to conference next week in CT. She doesn't know where my brother lives or the name of her grandchild. She keeps asking my dad the same questions.

They are at the doctor as I type this. And so I wait.

The thing is that my mom is one of the most capable people I know. She has more energy than the rest of us combined and is always doing something. She's intelligent. Independent. Competent.

My dad sounds scared. Not a voice I've ever heard on him.

I want to just get on a plane. I probably will. But we are waiting to hear what the doc has to say.

I am scared.

11 comments:

Clea said...

Thinking of you and your family. Hope your mom's ok.

Gina said...

Oh hunny!
Sending lots of light and healing to you and your family!

Michelle said...

*hugs*
I'm so sorry to hear! Sending lots of love to you and your family. You are all in my prayers!

Lots of love. Shout if there is anything I can do or anything you need. I'm here!

Gill said...

Oh Caz! Thinking of you and sending hugs xx

Emma's Daddy said...

I'm so sorry to read this. I hope that things improve. Thinking of you and praying.

Sarah said...

Praying for your mom...I know the waiting is the worst part. Stay strong and keep us update. HUGS.

Caz said...
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Caz said...

thanks for the thoughts and prayers guys x

Lynette said...

Will be praying.

Angel said...

Big love to you Caz...
I am watching my daddy darling get old and frail and whilst he always has a smile for his children, we are noticing him forgetting things and it makes me so heartsore.

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