Wednesday, July 07, 2010

We're just about there

I can't believe the day is just about to dawn. Everyone says to me "already?? Wow it's gone fast!" HA! People forget that they only heard at 12 weeks. Also it's fast if you're not living in fear and worry. No... I can't say it's gone fast. This pregnancy has fone from one milestone to the next. We've tried to celebrate each one, to consciously unguard our hearts. This pregnancy has been the hardest thing I've ever done, but it has also probably saved my life. Sounds melodramatic, but the promise of new hope, the joy of pregnancy that you simply can not dampen, has no doubt saved my sanity, maintained some joie de vivre in me. I am entirely, indescribably grateful to have this baby on board.

But I ramble.

Yesterday and today I had my steroid shots. Ow. I've been wide awake since 3.30am - not worrying, not stressing, just awake. Asked the nurse about it today and she says it's a side effect from the shot. Lovely! Hoping for a better night's sleep tonight!

So tomorrow, in I go. 5pm I go to hospital and they will start the induction soon after. By Friday morning the doc will pretty much know if natural is going to happen, if not it'll be a caesar.

It occurred to me yesterday that my only prayer has been for a healthy, living child. It seems greedy to ask for any more. But that's a bit silly, isn't it. God is not a Father who wants to give his kids the bare minimum. With that in mind, here's what I'm praying for... those of you who do, please could you join me in this?

1. A healthy little baby girl (oh and my health too)
2. No need for her to spend time in NICU
3. The induction to take fast so I can avoid a caesar (unfortunately if I have a caesar I'll never be able to go natural again - they can't induce if you've had a caesar. Also with The Kernel being so small she is going to need a lot of love and care from me and I want to be in top form to be able to provide that for her)
4. A fairly quick labour

Those are absolutely in order of priority and number one is the only one that really matters, the rest would be great of course, but to have my baby born safe and healthy will be everything to me.

In the last couple of days I've had so many blog comments, twitter comments, FB messages, smses and phone calls of people all over sending their support, their love, their prayers. It has meant so much. People are incredible. Thanks to all of you for caring so much. I am taking my computer to hospital and as soon as possible I will update you all and post pics. Otherwise, follow me on twitter - that's the easiest for me as it's straight from the phone.

Adios for now :)

19 comments:

Shayne said...

Caz, I have been praying for you since I started reading your blog. For another healthy pregnancy and baby to follow.

I am so excited for you that tomorrow is almost here and that the road you have journeyed has been fairly calm and 'storybook' pregnancy.

I'm not on twitter but will check back on Friday. Good luck and much love xxx

po said...

I will hold every spare body part I have as well as my thumbs for you tomorrow.

Kristen said...

I will definitely be thinking of you! GOod luck and I can't wait to see some pics of your beautiful kernel!!!!

k@lakly said...

Holding you close and hopng. Hoping you get everything you asked for, and more:)
xxoo

Ruby said...

So much of excitedness:) Praying for you guys:) *hugs*

Sarah said...

can't wait to meet the new little one! you will do great and I will def be praying for you!

Maddie said...

All the best. Can't wait to hear the good news and see pictures.

Thinking of you and hoping everything goes smoothly.

Maddie x

Rebecca said...

Shooting out all my best thoughts for you and the fam. Okay, so maybe I'm living a bit vicariously through you for the moment, as well. Hoping the very best outcome (see numbers 1-4 above!) and will be waiting to see pictures of your darling daughter.

Sharon said...

Remember you serve a God of more than enough!! Delight yourself in Him and He WILL give you the desires of your heart! His promise direct to you. I pray for all your wishes along with an abundance of energy & strength for you after the birth, that your hurting heart will be healed completely, and that your little princess will live a life of excellent health and abundance of love.
xxx

JessicaGiggles said...

You will both be in my thoughts and prayers!

cestlavietlb said...

Prayers, good vibes, naked moonlight dancing (ok maybe not the last one-it is winter after all!) you got it! ALL manner of good thoughts beamed your way!!

Gill said...

You're in my thoughts and prayers Caz. Sending big hugs your way!

Bananaramagirl said...

I am so happy for you my friend! You will be in all my thoughts and prayers over the next 24 hours. I know #TheKernel will be just great, and you will be the best mother ever! XXX

Virginia said...

Waiting, hoping, and praying.

Rachel said...

Sending you all my good thoughts and prayers.

Rebecca said...

I feel like such a cyberstalker...checking twitter to see when she arrives. I even had my husband check status this afternoon because I don't have access at work. Waiting impatiently along with you for her safe arrival!

angel41222 said...

I'm so far behind on my blog reading that I already know our Father answered your prayers for a healthy baby girl and that you and the band are doing well.
I couldn't be happier for you Caz! I look forward to hearing more about your little precious as she grows up.

Shayne said...

Congratulations Caz - i found you on twitter (i'm not on) and am thrilled to hear that Tandia and you are doing so very well. She is absolutely beautiful.

Praise God!!!

And Yay you. Well done!!

Tamara said...

Like Shayne, I'm not on Twitter, but gather from what I can see that you and Tandia are ok. Keeping you all in my prayers and looking forward to some pics.