Friday, September 03, 2010

Instead

Another long day of labour and then finally there you were. Even after 2 days I felt unready. They handed you to me. You were beautiful and still and ours.

Today should be about balloons and cake, presents and your little-girl-giggles. About a dress with bows and streaks of icing on your face. About flings chips and little friends and countless photos and proud parents.
About you - in all your childish wonder and unbridled joy.

Instead it is quiet.

Happy birthday my precious girl. I wish we were celebrating it together.
Sophia, your mommy loves you with all her heart.

11 comments:

Virginia said...

I'm so sorry for the pain and sorrow that are making up today. Hugs.

Shayne said...

Thinking of you today xx

totally cooked said...

instead.
memories and dreams
Grace - a delicate balance between here and there

hearts

cassey said...

gosh lady, i wish i could do/say more, but all i have are hugs.
hugs

Gina said...

(((((HUGS)))) thinking of you guys today!

po said...

Thank you being brave enough to share this.

Maddie said...

Thinking of you today. Hope the day passes gently.

Maddie x

livingintherainbow.com said...

I am so sorry Sophia Grace is not with you today and each of the last 365. I hope that this anniversary will help you to process you grief another step and that you can begin to look to the future and finding a way of holding Sophia through that.

Love

Emma's Daddy said...

I am so sorry that you cannot be all together. You are a wonderful mother to your children. I remember that feeling of quiet all too well. My thoughts are with you and your family. Thinking for you.

Joanne said...

Thinking of you often, I bet they are having a beautiful party in heaven.

Angel said...

I am so sorry that this is not a happy day for you and The Band.