tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29991554.post2283388433546856190..comments2023-09-04T14:45:47.026+02:00Comments on Living the Cramerican Dream: The journey of stillbirth - part 2Cazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11612645274970749043noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29991554.post-40853883255523098752014-03-12T11:03:59.890+02:002014-03-12T11:03:59.890+02:00Ah man. My long abandoned blog received some atten...Ah man. My long abandoned blog received some attention from me today and I discovered all these comments. Thank you all for sharing your hearts, mine hurts with yours and while most of these comments are pretty old, I know that while the pain is diluted somewhat by now, it is no less real.<br /><br />Caro! I see you commented a couple of weeks ago only. I wish I had a way to contact you. No idea whether you'll receive notification of this comment, I hope you do. Your loss is so recent and your pain is so raw. The world is still far more cruel than it is kind at this point where you really are simply trying to manage to keep breathing. <br /><br />If you do see this, please won't you send me an email? cozitcounts at gmail dot com. I'd love to be in contact and there's a book I'd love to send your way. So much love and prayers xxxCazhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11612645274970749043noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29991554.post-88654209203548570092013-03-04T18:29:16.989+02:002013-03-04T18:29:16.989+02:00Hi,
Thank you for these posts. I've been sear...Hi, <br />Thank you for these posts. I've been searching for SA forums but not with much luck. <br />My daughter died on the 1st of Jan at 38 weeks. It's been a crappy year so far to say the least. What you say here is so true though, and it's something I wrote in my journal today. Everybody is just so normal, everyone just seems to carry on. Everyday is another day for everyone else, but everyday to me is a day that my baby is not here. It is such a lonely place. It's been 2 months but it all feels timeless. Caro Sabbaghahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08274801825256490382noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29991554.post-37346588255402843362012-11-25T01:03:31.242+02:002012-11-25T01:03:31.242+02:00I lost my daughter last month suddenly when my bag...I lost my daughter last month suddenly when my bag of water came funneled down through my open cervix. I was 22 week and she was a totally healthy, beautiful baby. Before it happened I had no complications. Her heart was beating all the way up until my water broke in the middle of vomiting some antibiotics the hospital had given me. I was and still am totally devastated. The normalcy around me kills me and people's responses leave a lot to be desired. They justify her death by saying she could have had a defect. My daughter was perfectly formed and healthy. I'm also told often that I'm young (23) and the world is my oyster. In other words, a child is a lot of responsibility and maybe I can go out more of the weekends or land a more brilliant job now that I won't be raising my daughter. Who needs marriage and family these days when you have youth, right? I mean why would I want to care for and raise my flesh and blood when the world is out there for the taking?? And the normalcy...the people at work talk to me like nothing ever happened. I get to hear all their small talk or comments like "you're quiet today". I felt better at the hospital. I felt connected to my daughter, her father, and was surrounded by people (nurses) who knew EXACTLY the gravity of what I went through. I long for those things in the outside world, I really do.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29991554.post-56052974627579193812012-06-29T12:40:55.237+02:002012-06-29T12:40:55.237+02:00This is going to be major weird... You might remem...This is going to be major weird... You might remember I blogged at unconsciounsly-thinking.blogspot.co.uk writing poetry and short stories. From nowhere, I decided to look at my old blog and I found it still there, looked at the comments and thought oh-my, that was an amazing experience and I felt such an influx of warmness.<br /><br />I am back to blogging with a completely different topic, haha :D Fashion! If you'd like to be back to reading my heresies - I can be found here: pret-a-reporter.co.uk :)<br /><br />If you decide that you are soooo over me - then just treat this email as a thank you for the great days when blogging was blissful experience, t'was 2008, dontcha-know!Edytahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02464143620834984822noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29991554.post-72914765819617770212012-05-23T12:11:42.562+02:002012-05-23T12:11:42.562+02:00ah yes - the NORMAL reaction/treatment.
When I fir...ah yes - the NORMAL reaction/treatment.<br />When I first got back to work I felt like a leper. Colleagues did not know what to say or how to treat me so they thought they should leave me in peace. It was AWFUL! I wanted to be busy busy at work so that I could get through the day quickly! I need the hugs. I need to talk about our Nathan. Now they treat me as though I am over it - its better than the avoidance thing and at least I am occupied. But SO NOT over mourning for Nathan,missing him wanting to talk to him. I have spoken to him and even offered him winegums which he loved! I dont think the longing will ever go away ...... <br />embrace the mourning and go with the flow.<br />Love & blessings - Nana GlenAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29991554.post-25795933227829597152012-05-20T20:58:18.993+02:002012-05-20T20:58:18.993+02:00Oh Caz... I don't want to equate my pain with ...Oh Caz... I don't want to equate my pain with what you feel for losing your child, but this post had me in tears! This was so much like how I felt when we lost our Nathan. He wasn't my son and he wasn't a baby, but I couldn't take being with my family because they were trying to be "normal" and all I was, was angry! Every time I smiled or laughed or thought of something other than my sadness and anger at our losing Nathan I felt guilty!<br />My heart aches for you and for your SIL.AngelConradiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09423318903817661244noreply@blogger.com